I’ve filled this space with so much fluff lately, this place isn’t a very fair representation of my life. I wish I could publicly post them here – I feel like I’ve lost something valuable by censoring the details because I’m trying to be sensitive to my "readership" I have the need to write openly and hope that I will find a balance here and won’t have to resort to a new anonymous blog. I like having everything in one place with nothing to hide.

Azfar says that means "you're transparent" It was one of the points of us not being together anymore.
but through the fire, the both of us learned valuable lessons about ourselves. We showed our worst; we showed our very best. I discovered a reservoir of hidden strength and confidence I never knew I possessed. Neither did Azfar. Life is full of surprises.
From my little taste of it, I want to say that growing together is the pinnacle of a relationship experience. Discovering ourselves and having a glimpse into our future selves together is something I cannot describe.

I’ve always wanted/expected to be able to say that my relationship is conflict free. It is not a relationship defined by our conflicts, but we do need to constantly work to overcome ourselves to avoid them/resolve them better. The most important thing, though, is that I’m not afraid of it anymore.

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